~Having my moodswing is the most awful feeling i ever felt
Hello bloggy . Hello darlings .
Yesterday was horror . I couldn't believe why tears drop . I knew or at least i hope my tears are not for her . Like what my airen have said . She is NOT worth of my tears . Tears-drop are so silent . They fall for no apparent reason but i guess im just suffocating . Im suffering from my moodswing . &Yes! She is the one who causes my moodswing to act up . I've tried so hard &now just because of her . My moodswing just came back . No one will ever knows how much i suffocate whenever i have my moodswing . It's so stress &so suffocating . I have to bear it alone .,all alone .
Last time ., whenever my moodswing act up i only need this 3things .
1) Peace .
2) Typing of messages .
3) My precious penknife .
But now .
1) Eat &eat &eat .
2) Chocolates / sweet to stuff in my mouth .
3) Rant everything to my friends .
Now that i promise never ever to enjoy the slits of penknife . ): . No cuts/slits to share my pain . Never again . I won't slit for her . She is not worth it .,i knew . But i slit just to carry away half of my unhappiness .,or at least half . But i know 1 little slit will cause me to lose all my beloved ones . Its more painful than anything .
Is being Loner a better choice .?
No one will ever stop them for doing anything . They won't get hurt when their friends do anything because basically they have no friends . They look as though they are so pathetic yet they enjoy everything they do .
No friends doesn't mean anything .
They can still fair well in their examinations . They can still survive .
Hiash . Just 1 bloody her . Everything linger for so long . So longgg~~~
I would NEVER forget or forgive .
I told her i WILL forget but NEVER forgive .
Yes! I know its not good to change my words . But im trying very very hard to forget but i guess i can't . Those things she did really sucks a big time . Really! Hiash): . Now i realise why people say Jealousy kills .
Giving her my deepest sorry but it is her who drive me to this .
Meeting Kiwi later . We've our moodswing so serious yesterday . Guess the sight of her will cheer me up . At least i guess .
I woke up feeling fine after the chit-chats with la0g0ng . But yeah .,itonly last a little while . Everything just flash through my mind again . People message me .,will you .? Keep me occupy to forget about all this . It truly sucks .
Random pictures that i took just now . Didn't have the mood though .
Those fake smiles .
