Why everything must happen in this way ? Heard alot . Knew alot . Fret alot . Dishearten by alot . This 'alot' can you just leave my life . My once perfect life . It may not be perfect but at least it's way better than now .
I don't want to master the art of defending my own friends . Like what i say it's my own friend . I don't think i need to learn how to defend them . But what i knew , what i heard , what i found out , what i realise , what i saw with my very own pair of eyes , taught me that defending of my own friend is not a want but a need .
You will ask me why defend your own friends .
I will tell you not all of your own friends are really your own friends even if you treat them as one and they treat you as one .
You won't know what they are thinking , don't you ?
You won't know if they really have any motive being friends with you , don't you ?
You couldn't garuntee one day they won't leave you , don't you ?
You couldn't garuntee that one day they won't backstab you , don't you ?
Apparently , you couldn't answer all these questions until the day you die , isn't it ? Neither can i answer all these questions . As what i realise now nothing can be forever . Friends don't last forever . Even if they do , they must really be good ones . And those you must really treasure .
I'm starting to lose all my trust over * . I don't wish to even let anyone know if this person is a male or female . Don't pester or ask me who this person is . But if you are self-conscience , i don't mind if you ask me if this person were you . I may never tell . But i will ask you what the hell did you did to me that you think you fit everything i've mention . Or maybe i didn't even mention anything at all . You are just guilty .
Friendship is just a promise .
Once this promise is broken , no matter how hard you've tried to fix it back . There's always a scar .
I don't know why all of this is happening to me . I couldn't really find the reason why * did all this to me . Or is * really trying to break up my relationship ? Fabricing so much of tell-tales . That made me stupid enough to be convinced by what you said . Just because you said all of them so convincedly ? I'm really stupid . I nearly lose a friend because of what you said .
I'm fortunate enough that i didn't lose this friendship neither did i leave a scar on this friendship . If not , i won't let you off so easily .
And i really hate you for copying others (including me) . Can you have some originality ? Don't you have one ?
Forget about everything . I'm dishearten by everything you did .
